What is blogging to me?

Today, a friend asked me, "Why don't you share the link to your blogs?"

THAT made me think why did it never occur to me to do so...
I had already put a link to the home page of my blog site on Facebook and Twitter accounts. And even after writing blogs over 3 years now, I have never shared any particular blog with "people" 

I got my answer in my next breath itself. I never wanted anyone to read my blogs. All I wanted was to vent out my thoughts, in a way that they are accessible to me as it is, even my hair will turn salt and pepper.

Google Blog, for me, is a chest of ideas, random yet structured, abbreviated yet connected and with layman English yet deep meaning.

What the Pensieve is for Dumbledore, that's what is Google blog to me!

So, the plan is to just keep uploading random ideas and to hope that it will make sense, sooner or later in life.

To the Depths of Darkness

27th February, 2016. Saturday

Third minor is that year of MBBS course when you just have to study 3 subjects : ophthal, ENT aaaaaaaaand PSM!
The journey from 'help-me-figure-out-whats-going-on' in the first year, to 'putting-your-fingers-in-every-damn-event' in the second year, I had thought that third minor should be comparatively chilled out.

From holding the necrosed ear ossicles to examining the nucleus of cataract lens, from observing into the friends' ears, to unsuccessfully trying to evert my eye lids, ENT and ophthalmology postings have already taught me a lot.

But there is this one case I saw in the ophthal OPD that I cannot easily forget. A 13 year old girl from a low socioeconomic background, a known case of B cell acute lymphoblastic leukemia, had come with endophthalmitis ie infection of inner coats of eye.

She screamed in pain as the attending doctor tried to examine it. She got herself admitted to the neighboring Tata memorial Hospital for the leukemia and had already been through 3-4 days of course of few of the strongest systemic antibiotics I knew of.

The doctor called her father and explained the need of continuing the treatment and also putting more topical antibiotics, otherwise the infection could spread to her brain. She said, "hamein jaan bachaane ki koshish karni hai pehle".
To which he asked, "aankh toh theek ho jayegi na baad mein?"

And the girl broke down when the doctor shook her head and said, "iss aankh ki roshni ke wapas aane ke chances bohot kam hai" 

I can never forget that moment. The moment of horror for that poor girl, when all her dreams must have got shattered at once.

That's when reality dawns upon me.

What Khurana or Parson never taught us was that 'the Eye' is not just an organ but the most prized possession of the body!

During the OPD in the next week, I saw that girl and run after the doctor who had seen her. My joy knew no bounds when I learnt that she was responding to the treatment!